Saturday, July 05, 2008
Druken Truths and Death of Innocence
Girne do
Girne do tum mujhe, mera saagar sambhal lo
Itna toh mere yaar karo...
Main nashe mein hu...
...
Phir bekhudi mein hadd se guzarne laga hu main
Phir bekhudi mein hadd se guzarne laga hu main
Itna na mujhse pyaar karo...
Main nashe mein hu...
- Jagjit Singh, Main nashe mein hu
To be free, free from the shackles of the mind and fears of the soul. To be free of a broken heart and a long lost innocence. To live like a newborn oblivious to sorrow, at peace with the belief that something magical can happen at any time.
Footloose and fancy free without a care in the world.
There is an innocence about one’s first love. A purity that gets lost somewhere along the way. There is hope and magic. Everything about it is mystical and fantastic.
A glance, his hand brushing against yours, a smile, an acknowledgment. Just a single moment of connection can make your day. Nothing in the world seems to matter as much. You walk with stars in your eyes and your head in the clouds. The world is truly a beautiful place.
The first heartbreak is the cruelest. Undeniably, every break up is hard but I believe the first heart break kills a part of your soul. It kills the mystique behind perfect love. It leaves you a different person, saddened, hardened and more than a little jaded.
Love will never be the same again.
Every person you meet henceforth will at some level be scrutinized, critically analyzed, and maybe even judged unfairly, in fear of another broken heart. Every future relationship will be embarked upon after just a wee bit of rationalization; such is the dread of another mishap of the heart.
Maybe it’s a season of young love, with movies like Jaane Tu... being plastered all over the place. Or, maybe I‘m just old and grouchy. Whatever the reason, I can’t seem to shake off a strange wistfulness and wish my first love had been forever. It’s not the person I desire, but the idea, rather the idealism behind such a concept as true love forever.
Or maybe I just regret the death of innocence.
by nutty at 7:27 AM |
11 Comments:
what happened babes?
Cannot agree more with the part about your 1st love leaving you never quite the same as before ... unfair to the next person who comes along sometimes, yet usually leaving a better person in its wake. I like this post :)
hmmm...that's a deep post!!! if only everything was perfect like a dream.
"death of innoncence" has a few VASTLY different connotations - if you know what I mean ... so which one are we talking about again?
hmmmm....for a min i got all sad too thinking so true....and then i said what the hell! the one way to cheer up is see present pictures of ur first love and laugh your guts out! it's good to see how their life sucks now! So who's having the last laugh huh!!!
wow Zeeks that was like a slap on the face of your first love ... man that was a big one!!
slap slap slap slap!!!!! phew....thanks man nutty for giving me this space.... :D
whats with all the seriousness?
@unpred - thank you :) but I'm not sure about the "usually leaving a better person in its wake" part. Alas?
@chaitali - yes, life would be too easy then I guess? :)
@anshul - itna mat sochein :P take it at face value?
@zee - lol! that's just awsm! hahahaha! and you're more than welcome gurl! slap slap slap away :D
@bullshee - as opposed to all my other witty carefree posts? lol! I think I'm always way too serious for my own good ... it's a curse... it's true!
Yes. First anythings are like that. But yes, I do wish life were perfect. If first loves always lasted forever, how do we ever meet the perfect one???
Strangely, I have been thinking of this for a while now and wondered -"Is it only me??" And yes, you are left to be a totally new person and I cant agree more on how critical you become of everything in the world after that, will all the innocence lost! sob sob..
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